RANK 5!!!!
Mar. 30th, 2005 02:29 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
hisi_mehlotaHeehee! ^^ Pastey has a really strong friend who was willing to do a Magicite run (or three). So, one amazing black mage took five of us through several Instant Death areas. No one even got hurt, much. I got rank 5! ^_^ To celebrate, I rode the airship back home to San d'Oria, since I needed to be there anyway. The King had been attacked! It wasn't anything serious, I guess... I don't know. Vana'diel is just becoming weirder and weirder every day.
The San d'Orian embassy wouldn't let me in for a while. It was really, really weird.
Aniko and the previously mentioned linkshell member have, apparently, entered some sort of relationship. Whatever, right? Still... I dunno. They decided on this after Aniko decided that, since she wasn't happy or something, she wanted to die, so she kept trying to get the Beastmen to actually kill her. He found her attempting this and stopped her, or something. ...Part of me wonders if it was, in part, a pity thing, but, hey, none of my business.
After we all got back to Jeuno, she headed out into the Batallia Downs to kill things for experience. She hasn't yet caught on, apparently, that this never works because the things there are much stronger than she is. The rest of us all wanted to ride the airship. Most people hopped right back to their hometowns. I hung around a little while to finish off some stuff. Then, when I was done, I headed down to Port Jeuno. Of course, I asked her at that point if she wanted to ride the airship with me. She said no, she was going to ride it at some later date with her new boyfriend.
...Me, being the pathetically oversensitive thing I am, I was a little hurt by this. I don't even really know why. I mean, but we just did rank 5 together. The first rank where you get any real privilege, and... she didn't want to celebrate with me. ...I can understand her wanting to ride with him, but... at the same time, we've done a lot of things together in that game, and.... I don't know. I'm sounding more pathetic and stupid by the moment, so I'm just going to shut up now.
Anyway, my kinda-of point. I don't really care if my friends want to be or are in relationships. I mean, I don't want to be in one, but, that's me, and I know most people aren't weird like that.
But, at the same time, whenever anyone enters a new relationship, they seem to forget that all their old friends exist anymore. When they do remember, then all they want to talk about is their relationship. Or they just talk about how much they want one. Me being me, having never wanted or had any relationship beyond "friend" with anyone, I can't participate in these conversations.
Sometimes they'll try to drag me into it by telling me that someday I'll find a "special someone" and then I'll understand... But they don't say it in a way that hints at all that they respect my lack of desire to have a relationship.
I just feel lately like I'm being left behind by everyone. A lot of my older friends got boy/girlfriends sometime in the past few months, and a lot of my newer friends are either in one or want to be in one. And I don't have any desire at all to be a part of it.
I mean, I have guy friends and I have girl friends, but I don't want a serious relationship, and everyone around me does.
I guess I'm just wondering where this is going to leave me.
...Erm, yeah. In theory, I'll have another Promyvion-Dem run to whine about soon. We'll probably fail again. X.x ...Our white mage had better show up this time. Grah. Nothing like a quest that never even gets off the ground and all...
~Hisime
The San d'Orian embassy wouldn't let me in for a while. It was really, really weird.
Aniko and the previously mentioned linkshell member have, apparently, entered some sort of relationship. Whatever, right? Still... I dunno. They decided on this after Aniko decided that, since she wasn't happy or something, she wanted to die, so she kept trying to get the Beastmen to actually kill her. He found her attempting this and stopped her, or something. ...Part of me wonders if it was, in part, a pity thing, but, hey, none of my business.
After we all got back to Jeuno, she headed out into the Batallia Downs to kill things for experience. She hasn't yet caught on, apparently, that this never works because the things there are much stronger than she is. The rest of us all wanted to ride the airship. Most people hopped right back to their hometowns. I hung around a little while to finish off some stuff. Then, when I was done, I headed down to Port Jeuno. Of course, I asked her at that point if she wanted to ride the airship with me. She said no, she was going to ride it at some later date with her new boyfriend.
...Me, being the pathetically oversensitive thing I am, I was a little hurt by this. I don't even really know why. I mean, but we just did rank 5 together. The first rank where you get any real privilege, and... she didn't want to celebrate with me. ...I can understand her wanting to ride with him, but... at the same time, we've done a lot of things together in that game, and.... I don't know. I'm sounding more pathetic and stupid by the moment, so I'm just going to shut up now.
Anyway, my kinda-of point. I don't really care if my friends want to be or are in relationships. I mean, I don't want to be in one, but, that's me, and I know most people aren't weird like that.
But, at the same time, whenever anyone enters a new relationship, they seem to forget that all their old friends exist anymore. When they do remember, then all they want to talk about is their relationship. Or they just talk about how much they want one. Me being me, having never wanted or had any relationship beyond "friend" with anyone, I can't participate in these conversations.
Sometimes they'll try to drag me into it by telling me that someday I'll find a "special someone" and then I'll understand... But they don't say it in a way that hints at all that they respect my lack of desire to have a relationship.
I just feel lately like I'm being left behind by everyone. A lot of my older friends got boy/girlfriends sometime in the past few months, and a lot of my newer friends are either in one or want to be in one. And I don't have any desire at all to be a part of it.
I mean, I have guy friends and I have girl friends, but I don't want a serious relationship, and everyone around me does.
I guess I'm just wondering where this is going to leave me.
...Erm, yeah. In theory, I'll have another Promyvion-Dem run to whine about soon. We'll probably fail again. X.x ...Our white mage had better show up this time. Grah. Nothing like a quest that never even gets off the ground and all...
~Hisime
